Ok, I know what I want for my birthday now:
Neat fursuit: http://www.beastcub.com/apps/photos/photo?photoid=23888998

Someone showed me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7qhP4L1zaqo&fmt=18
It was such cute overload that I passed it around to other people. Most just said, "Oh yeah, I remember that. They really should redo the video."
A few said they already had the albums.
So, now I've memorized the words to stop it playing in my head constantly :)

So, random thing for today: My version of heaven and hell.

They're exactly the same place. When you die, you regain awareness of many things. This in effect removes from you the ability to lie to yourself about what you did and why. You clearly see every selfish action you made, every time you hurt someone, etc. You also clearly see the beautiful things you've done in life. So you are forced to face yourself for who you truely are. This in itself can be a joyous or painful experience, based on how you feel about yourself. And then you're faced with an entity that loves you for who you are, flaws and all. If you can't accept and love yourself, this hurts even more.

The closest I've seen to this in story form is What Dreams May Come. The people in the various versions of hell had put themselves there. And everyone's version of heaven was different. Only, I expect in the real afterlife, there is so much more to experience than just what we can imagine.

This makes the concept of sin, being that which will send you to hell, basicly any act that will damage your own soul. It has nothing to do with dogma. It does have to do with happiness, responsability, and love.

There are four or five pregnant women at work.

I wish male pregnancy technology would hurry up and get perfected. I haven't heard anything since the last successful male pregnancy. And the side effects of that one did not at all sound appealing. I like my instestines more than I want to have a kid.

The flight was ... interesting. "The fire you just saw coming from the right engine is perfectly normal. It happens all the time."

The fursuits were impressive. 530 fursuits in the parade. (Someone get me an image link to the group photo, please?)

I didn't get to meet everyone I wanted to, but I never do. In particular, I'm still looking for Legend, the maker of the griffon fursuit with pneumatic wings. Does anyone have a clue how I can get in contact with him?

I sold sculpey figurines and made back exactly the ammount of money I spent on the con \\|//

I've given up on full conreports. If you want any other info, comment and I'll reply :)

My puppy wags his tail and throws his squeeky toys around \\|//

*tears off wrappings from under his tree*
Lion: Cute plushy, I like 'im :)
Snowwy: *chuckle* puppy licks!
Kadziet: Nice :) I like!
K: I got an XBox, does that count? \|/
Misterious Lupine: Wow, I haven't seen that since middle school...
Brexx Nirpaw: Neat :) Now I need music...
Ryuchitoran: Yay! Now if only I could keep him \|/
Kasekine: *puts him in the paws of the wolf plushie* \|/
Winged: Hehe. Zach (our cat) will eat this ;)
Sandy: *HUG* \\|//
Lynard: *sluuurp!*
Clark: Yeah, it's been a while :) Hmm.. I wonder if I can still ride in snow...
lee_wah: Wow, that brings back memories :)
Stoneth: *chuckles*
Jurrel: Hehe.
Sandy: *nomnom* \\|//
Sandy: Awww :)
Fluffy: FC is soon :)
Fluffy Snowpaws: Yours, perhaps? ;)
Melchi: Definately \\|//

spreading the word: fetlife is giving away a kinky christmas stocking! enter to win: http://tinyurl.com/8vxe83



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Trying to get to work is getting to be a comedy of errors.

I found out:

The 148 (that I use to get to the park and ride) is being run by volunteer basis only.

Some people on the 101 were on the freeway for over 2 hours.

The only part of my body I can't protect from the cold is my nose.

I walked down to the park and ride. Doable, fun in one spot where I have to slide down a hill. (My other choices are to cross the freeway, or to walk about 5 blocks more, one of which doesn't have a sidewalk.)
At the park and ride, I stood listening to people call other people, trying to figure out if the 101 was runnning, and if it was when it would get here.
After about an hour and a half, I caught a 148 back up the hill and walked back home.



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But late gifts are good too.
I actually have money to spend on gifts this year, if I knew what people wanted :)

Mostly I just want little things that let me know you thought of me. Hugs, ecards, presents on the tree below, links to neat flash toys, etc.

If you want to spend a little effort on me but don't have money, you could draw me a sketch or write me a short story, or any other creative talent you might have. (I used to make warm fuzzies: pompoms with felt feet and googly eyes.)

Of course, if you're actually willing to spend money on me, there's always my Amazon wishlist. I have things there as low as $1.98, and as high as a game console :)

My general gift preferences, and my snailmail address can be found as always at my webpage. Boy is that background old. I should fix it someday.




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It's kindof egg shaped, not round, so it doesn't go where I want it to. But I'm getting things done with it :)

Living room rearranged for tree, donations of excess stuff, booksheflf reorganized, old tax records sorted, haircut, ornaments uncovered. Somehow missed actually getting tree, exept for this one:



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On the bus, occassionally my brain says weird things:

Yes, but it's not the even chance you think it is! Half the time the Universe decides, through some means unknowable to man, which side of the coin it Wants to be up and Forces it to be that way. The other 50% of the time it's just random.

And from a few weeks ago:

I&K Ink, inc. "Try ink!"

I get to go, yay!

I'll be arriving in SJC around 10pm on Jan 22nd (Tuesday night), and leaving at around 6pm on the 25th (Sunday night).

Are you going?
And what would you like to do together if/when we're there? \|/

He was remarkably tollerant of his first bath. He didn't like being in the shower, though.



All the pics we've uploaded so far are here \|/

This is Reilly in comparison to our cat, Zack.



I've had to shift my web surfing to nighttime, as the mornings are taken up with:
feed puppy
take puppy outside to pee
feed puppy
take puppy outside to wander around and sniff things
feed puppy
take puppy outside to poo
feed puppy
put puppy to bed
shower

First pic we took :)
There was no flash, so we had to use color adjustments to recover it.

Born Sept. 3rd. He's 5 weeks old, and shouldn't be away from his litter yet. Not sure if it was because of ignorant breeders or if it was a puppy mill. Either way, the rest of his litter was already sold, and I fell in love with him when I saw him.

So, first trip was to the vet in PetsMart, and much of the supplies we'll need. Second trip was, well, the camera and living room floor. Then the futon where he slept on my belly.

Still don't have a name yet...

Well, scouring the shelters didn't find us the right dog. In fact, it pretty much made us decide we don't want a dog from a shelter.

So, now I'm searching for American Eskimo breeders. There's supposedly several in WA, but I'm having trouble getting email addresses or phone numbers to contact.

Anyone have any advice?

The "Controversial" Survey

Just as a random comment... Why is it that all controversial questions are asked by people who obviously are unwilling to have their opinions disagreed with?

Would you do meth if it was legal?

It burns out your pleasure centers so you are unable to feel happy afterwards. So, no way in hell.

Abortion: for or against it?

I wouldn't do it, but I see no reason why people should be prevented from doing it out of hand. Sure, casually murdering someone is bad, but in this case saying you are absolutely against abortion is often also casually murdering someone.

Do you think the world would fail with a female president?

I think you mean the USA. But no, I think it would probably be better off.

Do you believe in the death penalty?

See abortion above. I wouldn't do it, but in some cases it's better than the alternatives.

Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?

Honestly, I don't care. I don't know of any cases where people are being hurt by it being illegal, but I also don't think it necessarily needs to be illegal. It would probably be better as a controlled substance, like alcohol.

Are you for or against premarital sex?

So many people have so many weird hangups over sex, why wait until you are promised to be faithful to someone for all eternity before figuring out if you're even sexually compatible?

Do you believe in God?

Yes. But I do not believe in Church.

Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?

Definately. Or rather, I don't see why it wasn't legal in the first place. Especially if a gay couple is allowed to adopt children and have every other aspect of family as a stright couple has.

Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?

I suppose I believe in control and monitoring rather than banning. Since it is illegal, and the hispanics are so pressured to move into the USA that they will commit other illegal acts to do so, then would it not be better to provide them a legal method that would allow guidance and perhaps deportation if severe problems arose?

A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?

If still living with a family that can help raise the child, then sure. By the time she's 18 and looking into college, the baby will be 6. It is possible, though difficult, to raise a 6yold in college.

On the other hand, if the girl or the family feels not capable of handling the responsibility of a baby, then this is a perfectly valid reason for adoption.

Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?

Age is a really bad yardstick. I think we should devise a better yardstick. That goes for driving, sex, employment, having kids, etc. Different people are capable of handling different responsabilities at different ages.

Should the war in Iraq be called off?

We seem to be able to do nothing other than screw up over there, so yes. Either actually do it right or leave.

Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?

If it's completely black and white, no. I think it should be hard to get permission for an assisted suicide, but it should be possible.

Do you believe in spanking your children?

Pain causes an increase in memory retention. If the events around the spanking are focused on why what the child did was wrong, then the child will learn faster.
Also, there are ages where abstract punishments and/or lectures don't mean much to the child, but spanking will get attention.

That being said, spanking should be about learning and impressing the seriousness of a transaction, not about causing harm to the child. Spanking should never be done in vengance.

Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?

It's just a flag. Why not? On the other hand, if you're asking if I would symbolicly but meaningfully betray my country for a million dollars, then probably not. I'm not into betrayal. If I actually felt like the flag was in any serious way representing my country, I might feel differently.

Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?

I definately have to agree with Terrycloth on this one:
"Obama. McCain seems really... um... incompetent. And insincere. And worst of all, apathetic."

Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?

Why would I be? People judge me for less relevant things all the time.

Pool was great :) Fluffy is sexy :) Love Shiuk's art :)
Shoulder was dislocated on thursday night, kinda put a damper on initial fun. It was better by saturday, though.

Then that thing happened to me again. Must CREATE. I tried to socialize, but all too often I just sat down and started drawing in others sketchbooks. I actually turned down yiff offers so I could draw...

And there was sleep. I can't seem to do a whole con without sleep on willpower alone anymore.

Was hoping to see Legend there so I could get working on my fursuit again. Actualy, most people I wanted to see didn't show up.

And I had money to spend! But, having money to spend, I noticed that all the stuff I usually drool over is not stuff I *actualy* want to own. So, if I'm not going to spend money on that... what am I going to spend it on?

I suppose I don't *have* to make my fursuit myself...

I'm going :) Are you?

Sandy is letting me get a dog :)

We're looking for one that doesn't have too much energy, because we live in an appartment. We'd like a medium sized dog, and the apt. complex says it has to be 40 lbs. or less. No tiny dogs, though. They're never happy.

Preferred breeds: American Eskimo, Finnish Spitz, Schnoodle, um... mutt that has hair and a muzzle...

We're visiting all the no-kill shelters we can find looking for a good fit with the family.
Does anyone have other suggestions about where we might look?

Sleep went much nicer than expected.  I woke up by myself!  I never do that unless I've had more than 12 hours sleep.

All throughout the day, I kept thinking, "Man, I've done so much.  I'm really ti-  No.  I'm not tired.  Wow."

Getting to sleep was hard on the second night, though.  I didn't feel tired.  But I managed to get to sleep after an hour of laying still.

I still have lots of energy :)

Tonight I go in for fitting and tuning of a cpap machine for my sleep apnea.
I've been meaning to post the results of the previous exam, which said that I get about 1/10 the REM sleep I should be getting. But I always read my journal when I'm half asleep anyway...

Perhaps this will be different tomorrow :)

I know greed is a downfall of mine. Still, it's pretty much the same every year.

I try to convince myself that the presents I buy for myself are not things I would have done anyway but just put off until my birthday. I get some good things to eat, plan an activity or two that should make me happy. (This year it was some money put into a game, Iron Man, and homemade philly cheesesteaks.)

Then something happens that makes me feel like no one ever gets me presents anymore.

I know it's not completely true. My mother-in-law and my grandma sent me money. Money is an odd thing, though. Nothing I buy feels like a present.

Snowwy got me some neat art when he went to AFF. That was several weeks ago, so it didn't register as a birthday present per se.

I used to send out ecards, gifts, drawings, etc. for people's birthdays. I asked in return for people to send things to me on my birthday. Cost didn't matter. I even suggested a number of things that were free.

I was told I was being greedy.

And, since I know that can be a fault of mine, I stopped.

Still, it hurts every year.

I haven't posted in a while. Umm...

Flibble!

Er, thoughts for today:
Monster battles in flash ;)
Maybe they actually are high... what does that do to the campaign?
What is pi in base e? What other numbers could I play with like that?
Can flash access files on the hard drive?
I'm not obsessed with RPGs, am I? I don't seem to dream about anything else...

I keep getting compliments about the salads I have for lunch. I appreciate the compliments, and I know the salads are good. But I keep geting the impression that it seems like making a salad is too much work to the people who are giving the compliments. Well, I'm lazy by nature.

I cook supper at home, which I suppose os unusual nowadays. But I prefer home cooked food to the grease and/or salt that one gets by eating out.

While cooking, I will fry 3 chicken breasts on the side. 3 because that's what fits into my frying pan. Frying chicken is very simple. Add oil, heat oil, add frozen chicken, flip once when the white creeps halfway up the side of the chicken, remove when the second side is as brown as the first. Store in tupperware for later.

Then I take all the cold ingredients to work and store them in the fridge. I like butter lettuce, tomato, cucumber, bacos, croutons, and italian dressing.

At the beginning of lunch, I cut all the veggies, wash & tear the lettuce, and assemble the salad. This takes about 3 minutes, less time than I normally would spend ordering and bringing back take out. And it costs significantly less.

As easy as this is, and as much as other people seem to wish they had similar salads, why don't I ever see anyone else making one for lunch?

Or am I just really that much different than anyone else?

Friday:
I arrived to a plesant surprise, finding that parking was only $3/day, if I had access to a room. So I didn't have to lug all my stuff all over the con. I brought my fursuit making stuff, my laptop, and a *really* heavy backpack with all my sketchbooks and resource material in it.


My back hates me. I don't think I'm doing that backpack thing again. 2 book limit for me from now on, unless I'm going to or from an art jam.


The con was surprisingly small, but surpsrisingly fun also. If it gets as big as ConiFur was even, it would be just as fun as FC \|/ (Note: Lots more people arrived Saturday & Sunday.)


I arrived 2 hours before registration opened, so I sat in the lobby draing con badges. Someone gave me $6 for one :) The only money I made at the con.


After the initial running around and seeing everything there was to see at the Dealer's Den and Art Auction (I bid on a WerePuppy piece), and finding out they had an indoor pool (with some cute boys who weren't furries swimmming in it), I went to a ear and tail making seminar sone by Legend! Well, he was going by another name, something starting with an 'S'. Nifty new age plastics make for very nice tails and ears, and I hope to visit his place lots more and finish a whole costume \\|//


Some fursuits were already out, and I got plenty of hugs in. I eventually got to hug every fursuit, even the partial ones. First time I've done 100% of them \\|//


Night approaches and I wonder where I'm going to sleep. Silly me, I keep forgetting how excited I get at the art jams. I stayed up until something like 4am, drawing and talking, until someone hit me over the head with a fuzzy club.


Typical art jam problems: Someone with sleep apnea trying and failing to stay awake. People misplacing sketchbooks, erasers, pens. Non-artists to be gently ushered out if they bother the artists. Fortunately, this year it was all Mortain's responsability instead of mine.


Saturday:
I woke just in time for cartoons and cereal. We watched the first 4 pilot episodes of TailSpin. Very good lines for the villian :) Lots of people came up and said hi to me. I have no idea what I said back. I don't wake up well in the morning, especially with little sleep. I think someone hit on me, but I don't remember his name. Ah well.


Someone bid on the WerePuppy piece I wanted. Then someone else did. Took me a while, but I eventually decided that I'd bump it into voice auction. More artwork had appeared in the auction, but none I wanted. At least not for the price. There was a very nice bird in the G section who's min bid was $800.


I meant to go swimming sometime. I meant to work more on my ears. I meant to hang out with friends. Instead, I drew. Compulsive creativity, you know :)


Fursuit Parade! I stood by the door back into the hotel when the parade broke up, and I managed to give every fursuit a hug :) Not the leather bondage dragons, but I don't consider them fursuits. Too pointy. Hugging a fursuit is for the warmth and fuzziness \|/


There was a Jelicai cat, of course. And I had brought catnip soap bubbles. Eventually I got the cat and my bubbles together, and someone took pics of him pawing at the bubbles, Shortly after that, I lost the bottle of bubbles, though.


The pet auction was fun. I would have signed up to be a pet, but the Life Drawing panel was during the auction and I didn't want to miss that. I could try to describe the pet auction, but there were plenty of people taking videos, and those would do a better job than I would.


Life Drawing was the only other panel I went to. Always a good thing for an artist to do. My drawings improvied notably after that, even though I didn't really learn anything new. It's just a very good reminder of proportions and such. They had the models stand digitigrade for as long as they could, which was something like 1-3 minutes. I thought about that and offered next time to do the digitigrade posing. I've done it so much I've developed muscles for it. They asked how long I could stand digitigrade, and I said, "About 5 minutes at a time, I think." "Wow, you can stand like that for 5 minutes!?!" "Uh, that's how long I can stand *still*. I can stand digitigrade for hours." I'm not sure they believed me. Maybe I should make a small wepage about it. Need a digital camera, though.


And, of course, more art jam. No sleep this night, as I was all excited about drawing shoulder blades and bellies properly again. Lots of drawings out there that I really hope the recipients scan and send back to me.


I did do one management thing for the art jam. I got soda for the Hospitality Suite, and kept a portion for the artists. Simple plan, right? With all the mishaps over lack of product on the shelves and cupon juggling which required the manager to take over the cash register, that part took an hour to do. Then I get back to the con and realize I've got to carry 12 12packs to the Hospitality Suite. Those things bend in the middle. I recruited some help and managed to do it, with more complaints from my back. And then, of course, the art jam had moved on me, and I had to hunt it down. It finally ended up in a room on a smoking level, and we lost about half the artists to that. But there was more live drawing, so I was happy :)


Sunday:
Mornings are really dull when everyone else is sleep deprived. Sure, I was too, but I had already gone past sleep deprivation to adrenaline rush wakefullness, to grey dullness, and then on to hyper bouncy hug everythingness. I think I got every fursuit again at least 5 times each.


Eventually the sleep dep started impairing my art, about the same time as the voice auction wanted to take over our room. The WerePuppy piece was the first one, bid up to 4x my origional bid price, but still very cheap for a WerePuppy, I thought. I got it, and now it's hanging in my kitchen, still in it's plastic to protect it from grease and soap splatters.


After that things get a little fuzzy. I was yawning alot, and I caught myself falling asleep. So I woke my self up with a final burst of adrenaline, got everything together, and went home.


Monday:
I don't actually remember waking up. I think I went to sleep around 4pm Sunday, and I came to awareness at work after lunch, realizing I had done very little productivity wise. I managed to get a passable amount of work done and get home at the normal time, and sleep the rest of the day.

My wisdom tooth shifted again, giving me an ache that reminded me to take care of my teeth. So I decided to swish with listerine until it stopped hurting. (I know that if your mouth is actually clean, listerine doesn't hurt.) This took most of the duration of my shower. I was proud of my endurance, even through the burning on my tongue.

Then I come to work and get my morning coffee, add 2 sugar in the raw, and take a sip. Bitter and burnt was all I could taste. No sweet, no coffee flavor.

How long does it take taste buds to grow back?

I rather enjoyed The Golden Compass, and am looking forward to the movie :)

So, let's see how this daemon thing works out. I started with 'Athenestia', a fox. Let's see if she changes, and what to \|/

Apparently, Athenestia became a ermine, then a rabbit, mouse, and ermine again...

You can go to http://www.goldencompassmovie.com/?90792.

And this is supposed to allow you to see and edit my daemon, if I can get it to work:

I'm not sure my oucsace webpage is still working, so I'll put my wishlist here

I keep not posting because I can never think of anything significant enough to write down. But that's not the point of a journal, so I will try to correct this.

I'm going to a convention in CA for work in a couple of weeks. It's about PS3 development. I'll get to see Fel again \\|//

Fel was over recently, and I had the time of my life while he was here. At the end I drome him to Verger's place where there were lots of other furs. One or two that I've had crushes on in the past. I could have stayed, but I never know how to handle myself in such parties.

I usually do reasonably well to find some activity that seems fun and sitting on the side, interacting with only those who come near. I do well with small groups of people, or even large groups if there is an activity that most everyone is participating in.

I thought I might have some sort of answer by the end, but I don't.

Vanishing Point is a combination puzzle game / sweepstakes for (amoung other things) a trip to the edge of space :)

And in three days they're going to be in the Seattle area giving out the last clues \|/

It's definately worth looking in to. If you go, please use lazarwolfe@comcast.net as your reference :)

Free kittens! Puget Sound area.

A feral cat had a litter of four kittens near our apartment recently,
and my wife and I have been training them to accept human contact.
Sadly, the mother cat never trusted us enough to come inside, and she
was hit by a car and killed.

Three of the kittens are socialized enough to find homes now, but the
local no-kill animal shelter is full. Being semi-feral, these kittens
are all very timid, and will need lots of love and attention. They're
primarily imprinted on other cats, so they should go to a quiet
household with at least one other cat for companionship. They are all
litter box trained and have no problems sharing food with other cats.

We have two males and a female in need of a family. The biggest male
has a beautiful gray tiger coat, and a rough-and-tumble personality.
He's quite affectionate and brave once he got comfortable with us.

The other male is the smallest of the lot, jet black with a tiny
white blaze on his throat. He's energetic, but still a little leery
of the big humans. He accepts being petted, but only for a few
minutes.

The female is the image of her mother, with back tiger stripes over
a salt-and-pepper coat. She's beautiful, dainty, and incredibly sweet.
She seems to enjoy affection even more than the gray male, as long as
you pet her in just the right spots.

All these guys need the basics of vet care, including de-worming,
shots and spaying/neutering.

If you live in the Puget Sound area and are interested, drop me a
reply and I'll give you contact info in a private e-mail. If you know
of a no-kill shelter that's currently taking cats, that'd be great
too.

Well, yesterday was my birthday.

For celebration, the boss took me to Cold Stone and got me some icecream, during lunch. And that's about it. We've been working 11 to 14 hour days, 6 days a week, trying to get the game out the door by May 27th. I figure after that I'll actually celebrate my birthday.

Planning on getting a puppy then.

Have no idea what's going to happen otherwise.

Good news and bad news about my work schedule:
This week will be a normal 40 hr. work week, and we're not working this weekend :) Yay, finally a chance to relax! Immediately after that, though, we will go into overdrive. Late nights every day except Thursdays, and one workday on the weekend. This will last until approximately the 27th, which is our ship date.

This means, of course, that I won't be able to host the friday night RPG game until the project is done.

But after it's done I'll never have to work with SAGE again!!!

Geppetto??!!!

They finally found a combination of meds that's keeping Sandy's blood pressure down. We still have to schedule appointments for an ultrasound and some other tests. I actually know a lot more now than I did. But what I really want to do is sleep for a few days.

Granted, I stayed up most of the night and am not thinking as clearly as usual.

What I managed to glean from the various conversations:
Sandy had something called Sinus Tachecardia, probably misspelled. (something to do with the nose and the heart?) They think it could be related to her kidneys. (how does that work?) So they're doing a 24 hr. collection to get a hormone count.

On the bright side, Sandy seems to feel fine. Mostly she's just bored, and wondering why the doctors are treating her like something is seriously wrong. I took her paper & pencil, game boy, books, and a couple of stuffed animals. I remember what it was like to be in the hospital all day.

Sandy's in the hospital now. We actually went in at 4am this morning. Her heart rate was 167, and the machine said her blood pressure was 247/163. The doctor wasn't sure about the accuracy of the latter, so he took a manual blood pressure, and reported 220/139.

They gave her an injection of something which stopped her heart for a few seconds and then it returned to the normal heart rate. And they're currently giving her beta blockers to get her blood pressure back to normal.

Tomorrow they do tests to find out what caused this in the first place. According to Sandy, it was like her heart "coughed" and then went into overdrive.

I spent the day with her, keeping her entertained and stuff. I would have been useless at work today. Tomorrow I might try to go to work, after I talk with Sandy in the morning. I'm sure I have enough sick days to cover missing two days, though.

I keep thinking I should post. I keep thinking I have nothing important to say. But I know people read this to see what's happening in my life. So...

Work is about what you'd expect of a game company. Sunday I went in to work for a full day. Monday I stayed until 11:30pm. Tuesday and today I stayed until 8:15pm. Tomorrow might be an all-nighter, but friday we will sleep. The build goes out friday morning.

Steak & BJ day was fun to celebrate yesterday :)

I eagerly await Kingdom Hearts, and am not really playing any other games. I wonder if those are related.

My scanner broke, so I can't put up anything on CC or any other webpage until I buy a new one. Might get a digital camera instead, but I'd have to build something to hold the camera still to use it for that.

Have lots of phone calls to make friday morning. Not really looking forward to that. I don't like phones. But some things can't be handled any other way :/

My co-workers keep asking me what kind of art I'm interested in.  I've been vague and diplomatic about going to furry conventions, etc.  Although eventually the softcore porn images from various girls in video games adorning a co-worker's desk got to me.  So I drew this:

( Dry Erase Lazar )

I was plesantly surprised by the reactions it got.  I was particularly pleased that I had managed to make him nude, with sheath and balls clearly showing, and have no one fid it objectionable.

The reactions kept getting stranger.  Until my boss saw it, and insisted I go to www.sexyfur.com and see what one of his friends drew.  Now, bear in mind that this is the same boss who insists that the internet not be used for anything non-work related, even IMs to family.  He spent half an hour hunting up that link, and encouraged my entire team to browse the site.

I suppose the genreal acceptance of furry erotica shouldn't have surprised me that much.  There are other instances of similar mindsets all around.

Including someone's suggestion that instead of Handheld Games T-Shirts, they should make some thongs with our logo on them...

Population of the USA: 295,734,134

Let's say 1/3 of them will be at superbowl parties:

People at superbowl parties: 73,933,533.5

About half of them will eat guacamole.

People eating guacamole: 36,966,766.75

Average amount of guacamole eaten per person? Let's say 1/4 lb.

Lbs. of Guacamole eaten: 9,241,691.69

Estimated Tons of Guacamole eaten on Superbowl Sunday: 4,620.85

We usually do all sorts of stuff on the Thanksgiving holidays, like make sure christmas lists are updated, contacting all our friends and family to wish them well, talk about what we're thnkful for and plan the upcoming year, eat huge complicated meals, etc.

Instead, we put Lego Star Wars into our Playstation 2, and played it non stop for three days straight. Well, we did stop when our eyes hurt too much and we needed to sleep, but we got back on first thing next morning. Now that we've bought everything and everyone in the game, and seen every possible aspect of it, I have crawled back out here to give all the updates I've been meaning to give, before going back and playing some more :)

( Work )

( Christmas lists )

( Puppy search )

Stolen from Akal Ashata Alis :)

(only 10 things?  must decide which, then...)

Make a post (public, friends locked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your LJ. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

- If you wish for real-life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

Step Two

- Surf around your friends list (or friends friends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

- You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

- There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.



Top 10 items from my wish list:

1) Puppy!  Ideally an intact male white american eskimo spitz.  If not that, we'd refer: friendly, medium-sized, non-hyper, pretty.  Must be able to get along with our cat.  Must be male, much prefered if not "fixed".

2) A lead programmer for the furry PC game I'm producing.

3) City of Heros subscription :)  Or money earmarked for renewing my elapsed subscription :)

4)  Digital camera.

5) Fursuit making stuff: sewing machine, blue & white fur & thread, instructions for head making, instructions for digitigrade foot making, etc.

6) Sleep-yiffs or other naughty stories/art ;)

7) Visits from friends, with lots of hugs, cuddles, 'n stuff \\|//

8) Backrubs and/or footrubs.  I'll return the favor too :)

9) Art of Lazar or Melchi.  Naughty, cute, whatever \|/

10) Leather, bright colors or black, for making things out of :)

If anyone wants to send me stuff, my address (current) is:

Lazar Wolfe
1205 Grant Ave. S #P204
Renton, WA 98055

Quick version:  As usual, lots of people offered to play with me, and most of them didn't show up or couldn't find me.  I made some money (very little) and some ears and half a tail.  Very little sleep.  Met several game-related people and can't remember a thing about them.  Hugged lots of furs, only one refusal.

( The long version )

I didn't know filing for bankruptcy would cost so much...

Turns out that I waited too long after all.  If I wanted to actually file before the Oct 17th deadline, I'd have to cough up $1009 right now, and come downtown with her tomorrow morning to do the filing.  But my case is clear cut enough that Kay Furin, my laywer, says I don't have to worry about it.

So, I'll file in about 3-5 months.  She's moderately certain that the new tax laws will crumble anyway, and I won't have to worry about it by then.  In the meantime, I'm supposed to stop paying my creditors, tell them to call my lawyer, consolidate my student loans, and hunt for medical insurance.  And pay her, of course.  She'll cost less than my creditors would, at least.

She also gave me the phone number of someone who's supposed to "work miracles" with tax filing, and will make it so the government has to pay me money this year.  I was terribly afraid it'd be the other way around, as my company has not withdrawn any money for taxes or anything this year.

So.  Yay?  I feel a little batter now that I know the debts are going to be handled.  Feel a little bad for admitting defeat.

There's been this annoying bug haunting me on the lg_vx4400 phones.  Well, 4 of them really.  On no other phone does my game crash, but the 4400.  And, of course, I can find no reason for this crash.  We don't have an lg_vx4400 phone to test on, so I could never get a stack trace or output log.

Imagine my joy when we got one on loan in the mail yesterday :p

So, today I verify all the bugs.  Yep, the game crashes when attempting to play this one mode.  The game crashes when attempting to log onto the server.  The *phone* crashes if you attempt to abort the game via the Home/End key.

So, now I engage AppLogger to see what's going on just before the crashes.  But when I attempt to repro the first bug, I accidentally select a game mode that doesn't crash.

Ever after that, *nothing I do* gets the game to crash!

• I tried deleting all the user data files, giving it a clean slate, to see if it would crash then.  Nope.
• I tried a complete reinstall.  Everything *should* be *exactly* like it was when I first installed it and reproed the crashes.  Nope, still no crash.
• I thought perhaps it's a rare occurance, and sat down to start and abort the one game mode that's supposed to crash 23 times.  Everything runs perfectly.

So.

I have to turn in a fix attempt.

So, I add a strange thing to startup screen that invisibly makes all the menu selections necessary to start the game mode that worked, then back out to the main menu again.

I have no idea if this will work.  It seems to have done so for this phone...